it’s 1:23 am and im not sure why im not in bed.  i stayed up to do some songwriting but i’ve given up for the night.  songwriting is an interesting thing.  sometimes you feel all this inspiration to write something really cool, but end up with nothing.  other times it’s just the opposite.

it’s been a cool past couple of days.  kerri and i spent the day yesterday in nashville celebrating with our friends at EMI/sixsteps records.  chris tomlin’s records “arriving” and “see the morning” went platinum (1,000,000 records) and gold (500,000 records).  in a day where not many records are being sold that’s a pretty unique thing.  it was so cool to watch the humility all over the people at EMI and sixsteps.  the recognition of God’s grace and blessing in the whole process was so clear.  chris is such a great example of a man who has submitted wholly to the will of God in his life.  he isn’t trying at all to hold onto any sort of fame or recognition in this whole thing.  as a 25 year old worship leader/songwriter it’s so good for me to see someone like that.  be sure to check out chris’ new record that comes out september 2nd called “Hello Love.”  it’s really really great.  kerri and i both think it’s his best.  you can take that for whatever it’s worth.

it’s so good to be back home.  i had rehearsal for browns bridge community church tonight.  browns bridge is a sister campus of north point community church and it’s where kerri and i call home.  i love leading there.  i have several close friends on staff there and i love their commitment to the free movement and wisdom of God’s Holy Spirit.  we are doing a version of a an acoustic set this sunday.  it consists of a kick-snare-hat drum kit, two acoustic guitars, a piano, a bass player, two background vocalists, and me leading. we’ve got three songs planned with an allotted “freedom time.”  “freedom time” is something new that we’re trying at browns bridge and i gotta be honest…it fires me up.  it’s time added to the worship set and can be used by the worship leader however he or she sees fit.  this is why i love browns bridge.  so this sunday i have around 3 extra minutes to do with whatever i feel is best.  now…3 minutes might not sound like alot to you, but 3 minutes is an eternity my world.  im very expectant for this sunday.

tomorrow i’m going to the braves game with my drummer and good friend joe thibodeau.  i haven’t been to a game yet this year.  i used to be such a die hard braves fan.  it’s funny what takes a back seat when you have kids.  i was a really big  baseball fan for a while.  i was up on all the stats and standings.  i never missed a trade or a steroid scandal, but now i can honestly say i have no idea what’s going on.  i’ll have to spend some time on the information super-highway tomorrow before the game and catch up on what’s happening in the MLB. 

ok…im finally getting tired.  time to hit the sack.

stanfill out!


light as lemon pudding

August 19, 2008

can i just start this off by apologizing for the extremely high level of drama in my last post. i stand by everything i wrote, but wow…i must have been in a very emo-rrific mood on friday night. thanks for pressing through!

so…in an attempt to lighten the mood here at que es, this post is going to be a collection of snappy, upbeat and/or lighthearted happenings.

first up…manila. i can’t get to far away from august 1st without writing about how incredible our trip to manila, philipines was. those of you that have been keeping up with the passion blog already know about the massive movement of God that happened there, but for those of you who aren’t up to speed…me and the guys in the band hopped aboard the passion world tour with the passion team and headed to manila. the church of Jesus is alive and thriving there. we went to join with the believers in manila in lifting Jesus’ name up…and we did. for over 3 hours we got a lot a bit crazy in our love for God. the filipinos are some of the most beautiful and exciting people i’ve ever been around. their smiling faces and loud voices have been impressed on my heart forever. it was a night that only God could’ve orchestrated and we were overwhelmed to be a part of it. manila…we’ll be back.

second…charlie hall’s new record. “the bright sadness” released today and if you haven’t already…go buy it. charlie always comes at songwriting in such a fresh way and “the bright sadness” is no exception. beautifully honest lyrics and music that help me give voice to new confessions to God. i have been listening to this record for the past few weeks and i’m still digging in and loving EVERY track. all that to say. it’s one of the most honest and creative records that’s come out this year…you’ll love it. also..if you’re in the atlanta area tonight at around 7:30, charlie and his band will be releasing the new record at 7|22. you should def come and check it out.

third…something happened at our last camp of the summer that i’d like to share with you. we were in portland, oregon. it was a 5 day camp with our good friends student life. on the last day of camp our drummer joe woke up in a bit of a predicament. the video below should explain everything…

come to find out, this is a pretty common condition. joe’s doctor said that this is happening more and more due to extremely high levels of the tinkerbell hormone in poultry these days. he removed the wings and put joe on a strict poultry free diet. joe is ok.

fourthly…my son isaac is counting to ten now. we think this a direct result of his obsession with elmo. i’ve tried several times to catch this on video, but so far i haven’t had any luck. i did catch this though…

with that i say…stanfill out.

Post update – it’s 3am…i cant sleep…Charlie and band rocked at 722 tonight. “Hookers and robbers”…WOW!

what is this place?!!?

August 16, 2008

About half way through our summer a friend of mine called me and left me this message, “kristian, never count God out.” he said some other stuff too, but these words leapt out at me and stuck deep in my soul. i couldn’t shake them. what was it about those words that kept chasing me down? i realize now the reason i couldn’t shake my friend’s warning was because i was in fact counting God out. the beauty of it all is that it was in those times, when i had counted God out, that He made Himself known the most. just when i thought all was lost and that we might as well pack it up and call it quits cause nothing good was going to come from all this, we got more than we ever dreamed of.

a lot of this summer felt like i was being blindfolded, thrown into the back of a car and driven to a remote location a long way from anybody or anything that was familiar. i was scared to death to be in this new place. a place where all comfortability and predictability went out the window. i didn’t know which way to walk or what to do. i felt alone. until i stopped pitching a fit and realized who i was with. i wasn’t alone and in fact i was with the One who loved and knew me the best. God was there, and He began inspiring me and leading me to new places that i could never have made it to on my own. i had a closer, more intimate relationship with God than ever before. He spoke…i listened. He led…i followed. it was that simple. it IS that simple.

this all didn’t happen because i’m sooooo spiritual or because i take 1000mg of holiness pills everyday. this happened because God knew i was becoming a complacent follower and i needed to be shaken a little. i was becoming a revelation 3:15-16 Christian…lukewarm and in need of nothing. my proud heart of stone needed breaking and my white knuckled grip on the world around me needed to be loosened. the truth is, my heart is still breaking and becoming tender. the process isn’t over yet. even tonight as i write this post my heart is troubled because so much of what i have depended on for so long is crumbling. the days of depending solely on my gifts as a musician and worship leader are coming to an end. Leading worship and living the Christian life is less about singing and going to vacation bible school and more about complete dependence on God. The next season of my life is on the horizon and it’s all about dependence. God is teaching me that in every part of life…Him. that’s it. i need nothing else. we need nothing else.

this is really all there is to say about this past summer. i had planned on going through and sharing some details about what went down and how God changed my life forever, but i’m not going to do that. Simply…this summer was the summer that God cut a gaping hole in my “bag of tricks” and one by one they fell out until i had nothing left to rely on but His Holy Spirit and the truth that i profess to live for. i feel exposed and naked, but in beautiful, intimate fellowship with my creator.

Monster post coming soon

August 13, 2008

I’m working on a monster of a post covering our summer events and the awesomeness that is michael phelps. Stay tuned.